I know that it is still a week and a day until Marissa turns two, but I just could not delay posting this video any longer. I have had this particular montage in mind for several months now. I wanted to do this in honor of Marissa's upcoming two year celebration. I have been putting it off because 1. I had plenty of time and 2. I needed J to help me convert our 8mm videos to mpeg. Of course, in the meantime, a couple of my blogger friends beat me to the punch! (Go check out Debbie's and Michelle's montages, they are awesome!)
There are a lot of moments in Marissa's 2 1/2 month NICU stay that we did not capture on film, for whatever reason. Sometimes, we just didn't remember to bring the camera. Sometimes, things were just too hard and scary to film. For example, we only took pictures and video of her on the ventilator the first time. She was intubated ten different times, two of those being emergency re-intubations after she self-extubated. Each time she was intubated, another piece of my heart broke. It was just one more setback, one more time to have to see her drugged up so she wouldn't "fight the tube", one step closer to the trach. We didn't exactly feel like documenting the experience at the time.
Looking back through the videos, I wish we had more of that time captured on film. I will always have the memories burned into my brain, but I find it so cathartic and therapeutic to be able to watch videos and see where Marissa was compared then to where she is now.
OK, enough said. Grab a whole box of tissue and enjoy...